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Secret Footage

by calicuzns

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1.
Patterns 02:58
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Patterns in the carpet I was sinking into the floor I was dreaming of pavement and wet skin Ah-ah But I didn’t know what was coming Patterns in my brain I was sinking into a hole I was bleeding out Smashing my head against the cabinets It left a bruise, I hoped you’d notice And I tried so hard to carve our names into that tree at the cemetery but the knife slipped And I cut my hand pretty deep Paused for a second and watched as it started to bleed but now there’s no scar to remind me how it felt when I was alive Now I’m spending my time pretending I’m fine But I’ve got secret footage of the future that says otherwise
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The Knife 02:02
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I swallowed the knife It’s pain but that’s life I went out side To siphon the blood From out of my gut The spilling vibrance I haven’t felt the same since Breathe deep on slow walks My clenched teeth have loosened up Will this be the year I finally give in Will this be the year that I accept the knife Another year another cut more blood I’m throwing up Can you help me clean this mess off of the floor This is nothing new, this has happened before Involuntary bloodletting yeah I’m bleeding to death
3.
Already Peaked 02:34
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Sometimes I can still hear my sister grinding her teeth while I’m in the next room just trying to sleep The drugs are kicking in and it’s probably just a dream But I can’t shake the feeling that I’ve already peaked and all of my friends just pretend to like me Reality’s sinking in and it’s not looking good for me Shot up through the ceiling, I was feeling sort of funny Floating past the window and looking back down over my body So take me to the top where the air is hollow and nothing seems to grow Sometimes I wake up at 3AM and see my name spelled out in smoke So when the devil comes to get me, tell him I never had a soul ‘Cause when the anger reached my heart it hardened into a lump of coal Am I dead? Not yet But sometimes I think it’d be much better than this
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Tinnitus 02:33
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Sharp tinnitus it keeps me up at night A siren noise for the future For years for miles an anti-paradise With grave complacency no one seems to care As another day comes and goes Warm body turns cold Can't shake the shiver or the chiming in my head Can’t help but think we’re all just living for the end Or dying for some form of relief
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Sleep City 03:13
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I spent that month in the shade of my mother’s hospital stay A thousand hairline fractures now When will I ever catch a break? And clearly you’re not feeling any better since you got home But I play ignorant so well that I’m starting to convince myself I’m sinking into my mattress again Computer screen burns holes straight through my head She says in the next 500 years our planet will be dead, smoke rising from her lips But for now we’re all saving our money We won’t be around for that long anyhow But our lives matter A blip on the radar, then gone forever I painted pupils on my eyelids So now you’ll never know when I’m asleep I had a dream you were dying Your eyes were open, you were watching TV
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Bad Souvenir 03:56
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There was a glare on the TV screen Oh, please turn the light off Not that it matters when there’s nothing to watch Thrifted ourselves into oblivion but I couldn't care less now that we're buried underneath piles of trash Accepting the fact we're stuck here Being alive is so weird Really should find a career Wouldn't you like to disappear? How could we lose a whole year? Fuck off into the atmosphere My future is crystal clear Left on the shelf like a bad souvenir I faked my death Or was that just some dumb dream I had? I can't believe you don't see through me 'Cause I can't shake the urge to just throw it all away Feeling so content to just let things slip 'Cause I don't believe I'll ever change the way I think You shouldn't have to witness my slow descent So comfortable around you Free to be myself Well, maybe I'm just depressed, so much rather be somebody else Trying to be a better friend Start checking in on you again But as soon as they drain the canal it's back to sleeping in
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The Fire 02:37
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Four walls in my head in flames A mental self-immolation replay Scratch the blood from a bed bugs kiss It left a stain Thrusted from REM No sense in holding onto my head Try to unsee the fear in my retinas and brows Conscious floats to the clouds As the flames take hold again Surrender my body to the burn Again and again How much of my limbs will crust and turn to dust in the end Collect my skin don't tell a soul Compose myself no one has to know I am so ashamed for living these nameless days I am so ashamed for hiding away the pain
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Doesn't Feel Right (Kentucky Girl) 03:03
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We were children laying on the couch Foot-to-foot, watching ghosts rise from our mother's mouth But now it's easier to pretend it's just smoke Scribbled lyrics on the back of an old shopping list Wondering if there's anything that we forgot to get I skimmed right through your notebook and I couldn't believe what I read Secret footage of your darkest plans that I couldn't get out of my head But sometimes I swear I can see you escape From in between thin lips and teeth then just fade away There's a cloud hanging over this house Something doesn't feel right Birds are crashing right into the windows I can still hear you crying at night
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Private Reel 02:18
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Can’t let anyone see my shadows Can’t let anyone have my time Hoard it all to myself, by myself The flash of a spinning reel in my head A fast flicker for my own eyes Brightness numbs my abject devastation Accruing consequences The film is overexposed A harsh example for how I live my life Losing detail approaching Fin But it keeps spinning, spiraling out of control Spinning, I don’t know I just don’t know Accruing spectators They’re here to watch some secret footage Sit back, relax, enjoy the show But I’ll never know If it dies with me, if it dies with you
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I Was Kinda Hoping I'd Be Dead By Now 03:15
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Negatively struck, positively fucked Absolutely losing appetite In queue Year of the Apath (sacrifice for a dime) Pearl clutchers telling us to stay in line Death’s due Watch the machine kill (with shock and awe) Praise to the bullet that ends it all And austerity claims its prize Caught in a compromise crossfire Playing blind to omnipresent pain Humans of wrested passion Crimes which become the fashion I saw the light fade from your eyes
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Hangnail 03:05
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Straining my eyes against endless screens Being alive is a strange thing Waving like static above your head while you sleep I could tell you were dreaming such dark things Salt stains on your discount self-help book It doesn't get better Your days are still strung together by bits of bad weather And I know I can't subtract from your map I tried and I failed Those thoughts stick around like a hangnail in the back of your head Taming my mind I guess I'll spend the night wandering the house with my flashlight Standing outside in the rain with a knife in your hand Those words got stuck in your head again

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released June 7, 2022

Recorded and mixed by Christian Ortiz at Crypto Lounge Studios
Mastered by Will Killingsworth at Dead Air Studios
Album Artwork by Gaelen Bates

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calicuzns Rochester, New York

Dudes playing riff hitting jams. Rochester, NY.


Jordan Serrano- Vocals/Bass
Christian Ortiz- Vocals/Guitar
Juan Ortiz- Drums

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